Ricky had sex for the first time with his girlfriend Sandra as a present for his 18th birthday. It was the greatest birthday present he could ever get. She was stunning; a star athlete at their school, so popular, tall and had the most captivating smile. All the guys knew she was absolutely beautiful. She dominated the minds of so many high school boys, and to make it even better for Ricky, she was a year older. Ricky rolled all 6’s and he never doubted it for a second when he was with her. Her curves, her height; she had legs for days. Ricky wasn't a small guy at all, but she stood up over him and her polished mahogany skin was soft to the touch; there was so much of her, Ricky never knew where to start. Ricky remembers how his friends talked used to talk about how they wish they could fuck a girl like her. He never felt comfortable going that far with them; but he's a teenage boy too. He shifted a lot in those conversations about Sandra.
And then, she reached out to him, he shot his shot. Fast forward and she took his virginity for his 18th birthday. He's had a couple girlfriends before but Sandra was different. She made him a man.
The next day, his clothes fit on him a little differently than before. People looked at him differently too and he truly felt unlocked. Ricky was always proud of himself; his friends call him a pretty boy and he likes what he sees in the mirror. Not to mention, he also has a swagger you get when you look up to and imitate cool guys on social media who sag their pants and fill up their room with smoke and trap music. Those were the cool videos he and his friends shared, and made, on Instagram. He looked back at one of the first videos he made a little over a year ago.
A long face, narrow and a heavy set of eyebrows sat on a young man who looked at himself in his phone at different angles. Ricky rubbed the sides of the stubble of a mustache on his upper lip, pulled his index and thumb down his lips, pulling them away and revealing light blue braces. He then split his lips further apart, exploring his sharp jawline and tilting the camera to the side. Mogging the camera, he then looked at it straight ahead and awkwardly smiled. His hair ended above his eyebrows like a k-pop star and the white passing boy made a funny face as he tilted the camera. The bottom of the video caught right below his clavicle and he lifted his arm. His bicep filling the screen and the dark underpit with a speck of hair. He immediately pulled the phone back, embarrassed and not wanting to show that much on the screen.
It had the caption #pro-gamer on it. Ricky remembers putting that in the front so it would seem like he was just being silly. But in reality, Ricky looked at that as a moment where he started to realize how he really looked. He started to grow confidence in himself as a man. Not in a vain way, but in the way a boy realizes that he’s not really a boy anymore. He was turning into a stud.
Now, Ricky looked at it with a cringe on his face. He was so young and embarrassing then. But it was the first time that Sandra messaged him, so it used to have a special place in his heart.
Ricky deleted the video from his Instagram and put his phone down in his pocket. He got facial hair and braces older than he would’ve liked, but thankfully the braces are off soon and he tells himself that he needs to shave off his little patches of hair. A man doesn’t have a little wimpy mustache like he had, after all. He’s gotta look tough, and nothing makes him look more like a wimp than that weak mustache.